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[Jun. 12th, 2004|10:34 am] |
hey who ever, so im kinda happy that school is out but then on the oter hand it sux cuz i can't really see any of you guys but i will come down and visit you some time julie. i tried like a wek ago and you weren't there AGAIN! but ill find you sooner or later the only thing is that starting next week i work 5 days a week, its good for the money and all but it really sux cuz its my summer you know, i need to be have a good time not working my ass off, but whatever if i don't see any of you guys over the summer i just wanna say i can't wait to see you next year!
jason |
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| sadness |
[Jun. 1st, 2004|06:38 pm] |
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i HAD to cut my hair.... |
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[May. 12th, 2004|03:30 pm] |
well today was horrible,
i hugged nancy cruz after 5th period and so how katie was there and she saw so now she swears like im fucking her. she said that several times "why don't you just go off and fuck nancy" all that shit. and to be honest i don't know if well make it past this one... its gonna be hard... she thinks i want to leave her for nancy, she says that nancy is the most beautiful girla in the school and shes skinny and all that stuff, so she just has her heart set that i want her more... i don't know what to do... |
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[May. 9th, 2004|10:44 am] |
i cut myself last night...
its been so long...
it felt great...
im sorry... |
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[May. 8th, 2004|10:25 am] |
so yesterday was pretty fun. school was basic and all but i did get some really good sleep in. but that night katie and i went to the drive-in for the first time and it was pretty sick. we went in the falcon and we met some ladie that had one but she didn't bring it in, so i started to cry and i fell to the florr and started yelling and hitting myself and then after i got up and wrote a song about it and made millons of dollors cuz im so emo! yeah that was about it though, and now i get to go help my "cripild" mom get "grocerys" lotta hard words
im outtie |
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[May. 2nd, 2004|08:31 pm] |
today went all fucking down hill. it started fine like i went to the swap meet with katie and all but slowly we just went to crap and before i know it im totally going off screaming at her screams at me. we were outside her door and we her a noise so we knew that her fucking parents were listening so she says "well great, now there listening" and i siad " i don't give a fuck, et them be the nosey people thety are" and then. her dad opens the fucking door and starts talking shit to me! saying that im being too violent with my words!! what the fuck. so i told him its between us so of course being the little pussy he is, he goes off and tells her mom, but in this whole thing it ends up with me telling katie that im through and that would be the last time he would ever see me alive and i left... but when i get fucking home my mom is there waiting for me! she said that katie called and told her what i said! so then i go off on this big fucking yelling, screaming, crying episode with my mother, so i guess i end up with me going to anger management classes. i just came back from your house julie. you obviously went there though... but was tht number you gave me your house number of cell number? i just really had to get away from all of this shit, i probably wouldn't have been able to talk about it to you, i can't talk to anyone about it, but i atleast wanted to just hang out and get mine mine of it you know... well i gotta go.
i guess i will see tomorrow.... |
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[May. 1st, 2004|10:17 pm] |
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hey whoever,
well today was alright i just hung out with katie in the morning till i had to go to work but i kinda pissed my off cuz i could cash my pay check for some bullshit reason even though i cashed my other ones fine. but what really pisses me off is that my mom and dad are back from the hospital now and there already punishing me, its like "what the fuck" you guys were in the hospital for 2 weeks and the first thing you do when you get home is yell at me. for all you who don't know my parents ride harleys and they were on there way to "laughlin" (can't spell it) but on the way there they crashed and my dad has a punctured lung, broken collar bone, and broken ribs, my mom didn't break anything but she got tore up pretty bad, and i feel all stupid for even bother woeeing about them because of the way they treated me when they got home, its like if i knew they were gonna be like this, i wouldn't have waited around for them to get home, but my parents in the hospital was adding to all the shit i was going through earlier. (you know what i meen christina)i only told like 3 poeple what had happened, i don't know why but its over know so o well. FUCK 'EM, I WAS FINE WITH OUT THEM, I COULD LIVE WITHOUT THEM, MAYBE THEY WERE MENT TO DIE ON THAT CRASH, TO BAD THEY DIDN'T HUH?...
im outtie |
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[Apr. 28th, 2004|01:23 pm] |
its like everything comes rushing into one thought about everything i could possibly think of but yet with all the time i have had to think about it i can't even make out 1 word that would meen anything.. lost i guess would be the word for me. im just lost, and if i think about it i always have been, and for all i know ill never be found, i look for help, but whn i find something of someone that can, i don't know what to say or even do... i wish they could just see the pictures in my head and maybe then THEY could tell ME whats wrong with me. but for now theres only one path that i can see to take to make all this end, and its a path i haven't thought of in a long time since i have been so happy lately, but its like everyday it becomes more clear for me, and i don't know how much longer i can hold off, until im holding my gun...
help... |
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| long day |
[Apr. 17th, 2004|07:15 pm] |
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hey, well today pretty much sucked cuz katie left this morning to go to her uncles funeral and i couldn't go because today was also my first day of work, the people there were cool and all but me back hurts really bad, i can't wait to sleep in tomorrow, and i can cuz i only work tuesdays, thursdays, and saturdays, not many hours but im making 8 bucks and hour so its cool. i think im gonna go watch a movie now... bye!! |
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| christina thing |
[Apr. 13th, 2004|04:01 pm] |
I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want.
Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything. |
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| breaks fucking over! |
[Apr. 11th, 2004|09:16 pm] |
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| | anal cunt | ] |
well as you all know break is over and i guess it was alright katie and i spent it all over the place, but we had a really bad fight during where i ende up chasing her in my car! she almost got me kill because we we on a normal street going like 50 and i pulled up next to her to try to get her to pull over and then outta no where some car comes up the lane im in and i have to slam on the breaks and swerve like crazy, its all okay though because as you probably know too i would die for her. so i spent the rest of the day talking to her on the phone at kerrys house trying to work it out, im just glad that kerry was cool through it all, cuz he was there the whole time, i hit here car too and put a pretty big dent in it, but were wonderful now so i guess its fine... im going to sleep even though its only like 9:30. SCHOOL TOMORROW!!
peace out homes |
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| don't leave |
[Apr. 4th, 2004|11:24 am] |
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well its sunday morning and me and katie a getting back to normal now and it feels really good but on the other hand her uncle only has like 2 days to live and my dog is going in for surgergy tomorrow, i know my dog isn't like her uncle or whatever but i love my dog! but i do feel really bad for katie cuz just watching her talk to me about how much she will miss him even though she didn't know him that much makes me wanna cry, so i don't know if this spring break is gonaa be as good i thought i night have been... |
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| her |
[Apr. 2nd, 2004|07:07 am] |
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im so tierd of katie i couldn't write last night because i got home late and the second i get home katie just fucking pores all this shit on my about nothing, im writing this from the fucking computer lab cuz m serious not gonna bother with her, sometimes i really don't know what to do with her, theres no way that i would ever leave her but i don't know what else there is to do i need help... im just fucking her life up, seriously i am she doesn't say it in those word but thats what she meens, and i only want what is best for her even if the means that she has to leave me... i hope she will be ble to come to some sense about this but this is the wors we have been in a long time 2 days ago was our 10 months together and we still have these stupid childish fights, and yeah i know that some of the time they are brought on by me but... I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!! fuck it, im done with this shit... i should just go kill myself then she how much she wants me. i love you Kaitlin... |
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| DOLLAAAASSS (KINDA) |
[Mar. 31st, 2004|03:34 pm] |
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| | varukers- protest to survive | ] |
well i sold me weed today for 20 bucjs and tommy is giving me 20 bucks tomorrow for the pioe, but i found out that i have some cronic to, so i gotta fina someone for that, its in a really sick bottle thing to so i was gonna raise the price just cuz the bottle cuz the shit doesn't seem that good, but fuck it SMELLS GOOD. ill probbly write more later... |
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| sick day |
[Mar. 30th, 2004|09:25 pm] |
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today was fucking sick, well after school was. school was pretty basic, but after me and kerry went out and he'd shoot a window with a bee bee gun and then i punch the rest out and we were stealing all this gay crap there was nothing good but in the last car we went to i just grabed a fanny pack and so change and we left but in the fanny pack was a really nice pipe and a bunch of weed with a liter and an inhaler. i don't smoke anymore so i need to sell the shit anyone interested? its a real nice pipe to ask to see it tomorrow if your interested. |
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| found it |
[Mar. 29th, 2004|08:47 pm] |
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julie!
i found it!
thanx!
i can't get any picture on it tho
help! |
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| finally |
[Mar. 29th, 2004|07:11 pm] |
well i finally got this working and im tired but who ever reads this pass me a round like a 16 year o1d mexican (named christina) in a gong bang, i have to go beat my penis like it owes me money now.
PEACE! |
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